These late nights trying to figure out who I am are making me feel really weird. The past few months I've been told that I've changed quite a bit from how I used to be. And I've thought about that a lot. I don't know why I've changed, I don't know how I've changed, but somehow I have changed. Now that I'm in college I guess we are seeing how the "changed me" is holding up. I'd say pretty good so far. To be honest with you I myself haven't noticed the change that everyone is buzzing about. But enough people have told me that i have changed that I believe them. My relationships have been really weird the past year. I wish more people were honest with me. I also wish girls and guys could communicate better on the feelings that they have for each other. It's so confusing always trying to figure out how a girl feels about you or how they don't want to mess up a friendship by saying something stupid and vice versa. Here at Johnson this week is basically a meat market, everyone is sizing everyone else up and it's pretty awkward. I guess thats how these things work though. It should die down soon. But for right now it's actually kinda fun watching people scope each other out.... (I haven't done much scoping myself)

  posted by Darrell @ 1:44 AM