Sometimes you just want to write. Sometimes you just want to stare. Sometimes you just want to think. I'm sick of comparing myself to other people. I don't know what it is about my personality or what it is that I'm doing that makes me think the way that I do. Things constantly run through my mind..... "Why can't I write like Nick", "How come I can't find the same passion for God she has", "What is he doing, that I'm not??" I wish these thoughts didn't exist. I wish I could ignore them or even learn to ignore them but no matter how hard I try they always reappear in some form or another. Maybe life is just one big comparison. Thats all it seems to be for me at least. I mean the only way we can classify ourselves as to who we are is by comparison. For instance when you're growing up it's your dream to be compared with someone famous. I'll be the first to admit it. I'd be more then happy to be compared to an actor or a writer.... I guess what i'm trying to say is that I wish I could stop viewing life as a competition. I don't know how I came to be this way, but I don't like it anymore.

  posted by Darrell @ 1:04 AM